Tuesday, September 13, 2011

My name is April May. (yes, really) and I married into the name. But that is not why I am starting this blog.
I was diagnosed with Alopecia last Friday. As in 5 days ago.
The last 5 days have been an emotional roller coaster for me! I have laughed, cried, hat shopped, googled, prayed, ate a lot of brownies, and googled some more.
For those who don't know (and I am just learning); Alopecia is an auto immune disorder that affects your hair. Weird, yes. As in you just start to lose it. Quickly. In patches. Sometimes all over.
Mostly likely, I have Alopecia Aerta. Which means patches. Maybe they grow back, maybe not.
Take this journey with me.
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention...I have incredibly thick hair that I LOVE! We all have some vanities in life. I have always thought I was blessed with great hair, nice eyes and a big smile. I guess out of those three things, Heavenly Father can have the hair back. I will try to be gracious about this trial. But I will also be honest- which means sometimes I am vain and mad. Other times, I am down on my knees grateful that this disorder does not impact any other aspect of my health.
Who knows at the end of next week I may be rocking a hot pink wig....or my hair may temporarily stop falling out. The unknown is probably my biggest struggle with this.
I REALLY like to control things. I can't control this. But, I can control my attitude about it. So, for the most part I will try and not have too many pity parties.